My dearest ...

I’ve been trying to find the words to express all my feelings to you, but I don’t know what I could ever say that would help you to understand this.

A long time ago I made a wish and you came true. You filled my heart with complete love and joy. Every time I think of your smile, the way your eyes look through to my soul, the way you make me feel inside, the way your arms feel around me, I am overwhelmed. The closeness we shared together still leaves me in awe. How can I ever forget you? How can I tell my heart I don’t love you? How can I tell my heart that we weren’t meant to be together? I can’t...for in my heart, I know I will love you forever.

I know you don’t believe me, for how can I marry another and say my heart belongs to you? You tell me that there’s nothing that can stop us if I truly want it. How I wish you could understand that I am bound by honor and I must live by it. I know you question placing my happiness in other people’s hands and I understand why you feel this way. Please know that this is the most painful thing I’ve ever done in my life.

I am obligated to follow the path that is laid out before me, even though my heart belongs to you and even though it means the breaking of both of our hearts. Please forgive me if you can. I want you to know that no distance, time, or space will ever steal my memories of you. When I’m old and gray I will still be thinking of you and loving you. I will hold you in my heart forever and ever. With these final words, tears fill my eyes, for I know I shall only continue loving you in my dreams.

Loving you forever,